I've been fretting over my impending confinement (long, painful recovery from shoulder surgery). It's like I've got a couple of weeks of freedom until I have to go away to some kind of prison or even torture camp. That sounds dramatic but that's how I'm feeling.
Psalm 55:5 Fear and trembling have beset me; horror has overwhelmed me.
Psalm 55:22 Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.
Not sure if I'm really righteous, but I'm trying. One of the hardest things for me is to be helpless and completely dependent upon others. I know I'm supposed to trust my loved ones to take care of me and I'm supposed to trust that God will take care of all of us. Sometimes we get in a dark place and need more than we are comfortable asking for. I'm trying to release my need for control. It's really just an illusion anyway.
Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Whatever people might believe or not I just really need uplifting thoughts and energies sent my way. I'm sending this out into the Universe, Heaven, Earth, 3I Atlas, and all the other comets in the solar system right now. Maybe it will land where it's supposed to.
I think I'll listen to one of my favorite childhood songs that helped me overcome anxiety. My great Aunt Mildred played it for me before a skating competition when I was 10 or 11. She was a Light in the world and I wish I had appreciated her more before it was too late.
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