Monday, April 21, 2008

Ordinary World



Came in from a rainy Thursday
On the avenue
Thought I heard you talking softly

I turned on the lights, the TV
And the radio
Still I can't escape the ghost of you

What has happened to it all?
Crazy, some are saying
Where is the life that I recognize?
Gone away

But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence
Once prompted you to say
"Pride will tear us both apart"
Well now pride's gone out the window
Cross the rooftops
Run away
Left me in the vacuum of my heart

What is happening to me?
Crazy, some'd say
Where is my friend when I need you most?
Gone away

But I won't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Papers in the roadside
Tell of suffering and greed
Here today, forgot tomorrow
Ooh, here besides the news
Of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk

And I don't cry for yesterday
There's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
And as I try to make my way
To the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Every one
Is my world, I will learn to survive
Any one
Is my world, I will learn to survive
Any one
Is my world
Every one
Is my world

"Ordinary World" by Duran Duran


My own words are failing me a lot these days so I have to turn to music to say what I feel. Just like the song says, the ordinary world I used to know is gone and I have to learn to survive and deal with all the ghosts who've left me to the "vacuum of my heart." Going through my dad's house, tying up loose ends, all the things we have to do when our last parent dies... it's all "just a little sorrowed talk" in the midst of a much bigger and uninterested, ordinary world. I don't cry for yesterday, but I do cry for today (and tomorrow).

1 comment:

eatmisery said...

My heart goes out to you, Rae Ann. I'm so sorry for your loss.